First of all, I wonder what my kids have dropped in the keyboard, the "d" key keeps sticking. I have to check everytime I write a word with a "d" in it. Do you know how many times one uses the "d" key. :)
I am enjoying my time with the two little girls. But as each day goes by I am missing MB more and more. Tomorrow it will be a week since she left. They return late Sunday night. I talked to them tonight. They had just returned from a couple of days at the Oregon coast. They went to an aquarium and spent the night in a Hotel, which amazingly is actually a first for MB and something she has wanted to do for a long time. Can you tell that we travel alot :=)
She told me all about an actual tide pool that they were able to visit today where she was able to see all sorts of creatures in their actual habitat. She was very impressed by a "family" of starfish. I aske my mom if she was having any problems with homesickness and she said not really. Every now and then she says that she misses one of us, but she is so busy doing things that she enjoys she is just not having any actual adjustment problems.
K, I believe is suffering more than anybody. Today I noticed that she concentrated on playing with MB's toys and wanting to watch MB's favorite movies. She also keeps asking me to take her to mamaw and MB.
Working from home is going well. I am enjoying the work that I am doing and it does feel goo to be doing something again. This is one of the plans I kind of had when I stopped working outside the home. I wanted to create my own freelance business so that I could be home, yet still do some sort of grown-up business type of thing. I don't know how to explain it, but I have always wanted some business of my own, where I get to call the shots an do the type of work I want to do. I know that I don't have to work, it is not that we have a lot of money, but we make it. My job at home is to manage and stretch our budget - combined with all my other home "jobs" I really should not want more, but I do. I am thankful that I don't have to earn any great amount of money just to level back to where we were two years ago, considering how much daycare for 2 kids and lunch out 4 days a week was costing us.
So far the biggest stressor of this whole freelance type of thing is estimating work. Figuring out how much a project should cost. I don't want to overcharge or take advantage of a client, and I don't want to short-change myself. I have a bad tendency towards undercharging, and then after it is over figuring in overhead expenses and realizing that I have billed myself at basically slave wages. I don't like to charge by the hour if I can help it because, well have you ever known a mother who can actually sit down for a full hour at a time to concentrate on one thing. This is part of the learning curve for me. I know the work I am doing and the programs I am using, but running my own business, negotiating, writing proposals and estimates for my work - all new to me in practice but not theory, since I have been reading about them for years.
Even with that stressor, I am so happy with where my life is right now. I am entering into a whole new world homeschooling the girls, I can see a 10 year dream beginning to become reality in a new "me" business, DH is happy at his job and everyday we are blessed with love, shelter and food. It has only taken us 10 years, but I believe that DH and I are gradually growing up and finding our balance in this whole adulthood type of thing, and more importantly we are each actually starting to see paths before our eyes, where before we just worked and lived to get through another day or the next big event.
Other things going on; I am still working on my Master Notebook in an experiement to organize us a little better. I need to finish creating MB's new attitude modification program. MB's and K's fall activities now include: Soccer lessons
For myself I am currently knitting this prayer shawl. I love the look of it and am somewhat drawn to the purpose of it. As I knit, I keep thinking about that purpose of it and various verses pop into my head. It is almost as if I am entering a prayful meditation state as I am knitting. Something that I woefully lack in my current busy/loud life. Although this ministry encourages the knitting of them to give away, this one I will keep for myself right now, as it is my first one. But I love the idea and am certainly considering making others to give away. To read more about the Shawl Ministry and prayer shawls read here.
Thanks, I think I have sufficiently downloaded and might be able to fall asleep. May this not put you to sleep also.
Peace,
Amy
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